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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

it has been a long time since i have been writing in here well i decided to write now is because its important and i just cannot TAKE IT ANYMORE. To let out my anger in am writing here now. I am talking about my mom, she is really getting on my nerves i have finished my homework(school) at 5 its already late and i want to go and have a rest than she was asleep in the living room then i switch off the lights it made a "click" sound that woke her up(i really regretted my actions) then she told me to take my 知识报 to read. I HATE CHINESE no I DETEST CHINESE(sounds better) and i always fear that she will say that and she said it. Then after being tortured for about and hour i thought freedom has came BUT no she told me to bring down my CHINESE CLASS TEST PAPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I have left only one hour of rest and she still wants me to do the paper i dont want to see it anymore??!@#@?@# WHAT THE HELL and i freaking wasted my 30 minutes of rest, and left 30 minutes of rest only?!?!?!?! WHAT DOES SHE WANT FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!! I really just cannot take it anymore i wannna SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! crying sad anger fury all kinds of emotions i am feeling no words can express i fell now 30 minutes of rest 3hours and 30 minutes of tough and work not enough argh?????? Still must torture me i cant stand my life i feel like running away but the promise my dad made me really made me wanna stay again i cannot leave home....still waiting for that very day to come......SHE will not be worried (guaranteed) She only cares about my brother(like all mothers do) so unlucky to have a brother. I love my father i wanna show him that!

She was here3:28 AM;